Review: Brownie Fix
Persey is a woman who seems to have it all but life takes a terrible turn when she loses her first child to a tragic miscarriage. Many months later, she is blessed with a healthy baby boy but a combination of grief and postnatal depression make it impossible for her to cope. Instead, she turns to things that she must know cannot help her long term but which are doubtless momentarily satisfying: brownies and self-harming. Unfortunately, when the brownies lead to her putting on weight and the guilt about her self-harming accumulates, her situation only worsens. As her family struggle to know how to cope and provide comfort, Persey has two choices: let grief and pain overwhelm her or begin the immense fight to get her life back.
Reading Brownie Fix was an unusual experience of pleasure and pain. The book is remarkably well written. Funny, tragic and poignant, this story portrays so much anguish and suffering in such a brutal way – and yet every word, every letter, rings with truth. Persey’s story is presented without judgements or moralising but simply with the clearly underscored message: how can you possibly understand that much pain until you have felt it.
Ellen Cardona’s tale of Persey’s travel through a personal hell to get to the other side is a remarkably accomplished book. If you have had any experience of depression, you will doubtless find this difficult to read and yet, at the same time, revel in the fact that someone has captured those darkest thoughts and dared to present them in a way that defies condemnation. This is a book that has been written with heart and soul and should be read with both to fully appreciate it.
(Book source: reviewer received a copy in exchange for a fair and honest review)